A couple of people have told me that I should write a book or offer subcription content on something like patreon for example. I found that building my own website is the best solution. There are no paywalls or distracting advertisements. This is my own corner of cyberspace to share with people who care. The haters are more than likely around too. I can feel their presence but that means they also care.
A blog is a webspace to talk about an often niche subject in a diary like format. Whom am I to be writing about the subject of the supernatural, spirituality the occult and well any subject in general? Well… there were many beginnings to my presence on the internet. So I’ll start with the one that garnered my content the most attention which is TikTok. I have to be careful with what I share about myself because people can take advantage of having knowledge of you when you don’t have knowledge of them. I don’t know how deep I want to go into my own personal experience. But I would like to share an account of my experience in doing what I do because life has truly been almost like a movie. I started posting videos on Tiktok during the pandemic in NYC. I really had no close friends because I kept a really small circle. I just got out of a long term relationship and was attending Hunter College online because of the lockdown.
It’s a time I have trouble thinking about because of the trauma I experienced in breaking up after a LTR. This was a period of intense isolation and the relationships I formed after only fed into isolation. So I decided to just focus on using all of the things I’ve learned from studying all my life to be creative. I just wanted to have fun on TikTok because it was something that helped me a lot during the pandemic. Truly it’s something that saved my life. It’s also something that created so much jealousy that multiple people tried to destroy my life as well so there is that. Originally I had a video go viral that got over 100k views. Then I hit one of me trying to explain a physics concept in a way that would allow people to put their guard down. It’s funny how easy it is for me to pretend to be a simpleton and get a reaction from 2.2 million viewers. I don’t claim to be a genius or anything. I just rather not shove an intellectual superiority complex into people’s faces. It gaps people who don’t resonate with big words. I had gotten those millions of views on an NYC train too which is also a great equalizer. Since all matter of folk travel on the train regardless of their socioeconomic status. I remember seeing Neil Tyson on the train once and even Shia LeBouf and I am sure they appreciated me not pointing them out. One thing about going viral without intending to or having a niche yet is that it brings so much attention but not a lot of retention. I believe I only got a thousand followers from those views. It wasn’t until I started making funnier or more helpful content that my follower count went up. I had a video of me showing how to clean the stove that hit a million views which I was pretty proud of. It’s funny because I had to argue with my grandmother that I could actually fix it for like 5 minutes before I decided to make a video on it. My favorite videos that went viral were the ones about spirituality. I got 2 or 3 million views talking about the Orisha Elegua and Oya from the afrocuban tradition of Ocha. It’s something that I still do but I have been taking my pace now because it got a lot of people jealous. Jealous to the point that they tried to destroy my life. It’s sad because I was only trying to make new friends and live my life. To move on from the pain of losing my LTR and Mother. They almost succeeded in killing me but what doesn’t kill me makes me stronger and karma is a bitch. I’ll talk more about this later, I can’t be too specific on details because well… the individuals don’t matter. They are just leeches. I will talk more about my origins in spirituality in the next post.